There was many reasons for it.......many, many factors are involved in the complex web of my mind.....this was just one!
My world once looked like this..... let me explain..
Say the big pink is me, big red is Dave and the whites are the kids. We are sitting in my inner circle of me. See....we are a little squashed, because I have let the whole world in, family..the dead weight kind, friends...the needy kind and strangers...the greedy kind. So I have done this all to myself in my "save the world mission" Everyone is welcome to come into my world to grab my love, generosity, food, clothes, goods....what ever any one needs, they were welcome.
CRASH...Depression, anxiety, obesity, DESPAIR.....
It's taken years....I tell you...a dam long time....but I have done it....We are now looking like this....
Up the top....My inner circle. MYSELF, Dave and the kids....Highest Priority.
Down one...My family...the ones I love and cherish...the ones that are good for me, I hold them close, real close.
Next Step...My friends...They come with wisdom in their bones, they are self reliant, strong and non crowding. They stimulate my mind, they challenge me, they love me...and I love them...they know who they are....
Lucky last...My world, the people I meet, the friends of friends, the community, the wider network.
Its always changing, as I get older I realize these beads will travel around like the solar system, some of them come closer for a while, some stay and some pass on.
So...now I understand the ripple effect....If I am strong, have not given everything away and are healthy, I am then in far greater condition for my environment.....I can do more....time is less waisted...I can help the people I love and sometimes even strangers (when they are in genuine trouble)........I am no longer, squashed, emptied out or hollow. xxoo